If you could paint your current mood onto a canvas, what would that painting look like? What would it depict?
This sure has come at the right time, currently my mood is a mixture of various things.
First there is my heart, with wings to fly any where it wishes to and to anyone yet caged. Trapped and caged within expectations of my parents, teachers and envy. I have always been super competitive, trying my best to outshine every other rat in the race yet there is a part of my heart that yearns to get away and break free, to escape into the world of wanderlust. Since I have right about 4 months to go for my exams, I’m nervous and tired from attending classes as well as working and then coming back home and studying too.
And there is my relationship, a long distance one. I have already been cheated once and do not want to get hurt again. Unfortunately I’m in love with a commitment phobic. I for sure know that we have no future yet my heart gets pulled to him like a moth to the flame. He has changed a lot since he left, has become distant and cold. We go for days together without talking and messaging; absolute silence. I can’t open the lock of my cage and set free because I know that I can’t since I tried doing it. And I can’t afford to waste time behind this too, courtesy my upcoming exams. 😥
So all you have is a tattered and tired caged heart.